SALT LAKE CITY (ABC4 Utah) – It was a loud noise coming from a different room that woke Michelle Lucero up.
It was a year ago but that morning will haunt Lucero for the rest of her life.
“I was asleep and I heard a popping sound, a bang,” recalled Lucero. (It was)
a bang and a pop.”
Lucero said she woke up and found her husband Moses Waters standing near a doorway inside the apartment.
“He had a pipe in one hand and a pan in the other and I was confused,” Lucero said.
The pipe Waters was holding was a make-shift gun according to police. She tried taking it away but Waters instead shot himself. Lucero said she then called for her other son.
“I told him to grab your brother, I don’t want him to see this and get him out of there,” she said. “Dylan went to get his little brother and that’s when we realized that the first banging and popping was him doing it to Xavier. (He) was dead.”
Salt Lake City police came to their home near Girard Avenue and Center Street after Lucero’s 911 call.
Inside they found Waters dead and Xavier barely alive.
“His heart stopped again and this time we let him go,” Lucero said. “Doctor said he had a severe head wound.”
Lucero said Xavier was autistic and suffered from attention deficit disorder.
But she said he thrived in special education at Jackson elementary.
“We would call him our blessing,” she said. “I would call him my blessing boy.”
But for the father, a special needs child was a concern, according to Lucero.
In his suicide note, Moses Waters told her he wanted to stop his son’s suffering and bleak future.
“He was convinced that, Xavier was autistic that he was going to be alienated,” Lucero said. “(Waters felt) He was going to be picked on and he wouldn’t have a good life.”
Lucero understands her husband was mentally ill and was suffering. She said he was schizophrenic and bipolar. But she said she has a hard time forgiving.
“In order to move forward I have to forgive him for Xavier but it’s still there,” she said. “It’s still real for me. I’ll never get over it.”