UTAH COUNTY, Utah (News4Utah) – The widow of a fallen Utah County Sheriff’s deputy is sharing a message of love and hope to a teen who jumped in front of her car in an attempted suicide.
Nannette Wride-Zeeman was driving down State Route 77 Monday night when an 18-year-old boy ran in front of her car in an attempt to end his life.
Wride-Zeeman said something told to her very strongly to move to the left lane and slow down so she did. As she did that, the boy turned around and ran across the road and stood right in front of her car.
“He stared right into my headlights,” Wride-Zeeman said. “I slammed on my brakes and veered to the right. He didn’t even get knocked down but just kinda rolled off to the side of my car.”
Wride-Zeeman was shaken and horrified after hitting the boy, who miraculously survived, and took to social media to send a message of encouragement to the teen.
“To the 18-year old boy who threw himself in front of my car tonight in an attempt to end his life, I want to tell you you are loved. I will never forget the look on your face as you stood looking at me through the dark, right into my headlights. I felt your pain for that brief moment in time and just wanted to let you know that I’ve been there too. I want you to know there’s hope and you are loved. I want you to know that angels slowed my speed and told me to move to the other side of the road… you weren’t deterred at your attempt at ending your pain… you just dented my car a little and stopped my heart.
To that 18-year old boy that wanted the die tonight… you apparently tried throwing yourself in front of five other cars, then you chose mine. If you only knew the events that had to take place to stop you from dying tonight. If you only knew that Four years ago the lives that were shattered so that my angel could change the events of this night.
You are loved, whoever you are. You may not feel like it right now, but you are loved by many here on earth, and many more on the other side. I pray for you.
Depression is real!! Suicide is but a permanent fix for a temporary problem. I know your problems seem endlessly dark right now but wait and you will see they will pass.
To that beautiful 18-year old boy who stood in from of my car tonight, who I hit and I sobbed for fear I had hurt him… you are loved. I will always pray for your heart to heal and for you to find who you are.”
Wride-Zeeman knows what it is like to feel so broken that ending her life seemed like the only way out.
In January of 2014, Wride-Zeeman’s husband and father to her four children, Cory Wride was shot and killed during a traffic stop on SR-73 outside Eagle Mountain. The tragic loss of her husband sent Wride-Zeeman through a roller coaster of grief and emotions, so deep that she understands how this young man was feeling.
Wride-Zeeman managed to find her way through those incredibly difficult times and has gone on to start the Code 4 that helps to supply officers with ballistic vests and protective equipment and Blue Haven Foundation that provides support and counseling to the widows and children of fallen officers.
Wride-Zeeman was not sure if the boy would ever see her message but said both the boy’s parents reached out to her Wednesday night.
“I am going to see him on Sunday,” Wride-Zeeman said. “Heavenly Father puts those in our path that are supposed to be there.”
If you or someone you know is having thoughts of suicide, help is available 24 hours a day.
You can call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255, the University Neuropsychiatric Institute Crisis Line at 801-587-3000 or by using the free SafeUT app.